chapter 18 - the final chapter

I reached the room , but I didn’t find anyone there , all I found was an empty room that held white furniture and dull white walls. Wired, I went out searching for soha , or fahad or anyone . I finally found fahad , and soha's father together , their worry faces scared me , I was about to ask but fahad answered before any question , soha …..

Fahad: soha m7taja do3a2ik , soha is fighting with death inside there , her life is in danger..

He then teared , showing all the weakness and pain in a single tear , in the other hand soha's father was praying for his one and only daughter.

 And if you're wondering about my situation , I was pretty shocked and surprised , I didn’t know what to do , to cry because of sadness , or to laugh due to my shock , suddenly all our memories collided in my head , the day we met in school , all our happy and sad memories , her support , her love , after that I shifted my gaze to the huge intensive care's door , realizing what's happening I know just wake up , I'm here standing , and inside there my soul mate is fighting with death , all I can do is praying and requesting god to save her life …

We spent hours there , crying , hoping and praying , but those hours of waiting reached an end , the doctor approached , we all ran to him , to know what the destiny of soha is …

After our questions he finally said : 3'9am allah ajrkum , lel 2asaf  soha kant '93eefa w ma gdrt t8awm , 59o9an enha mwlda gbil al 9 , bs al7mdellah al baby naja

Its like someone slapped me on my face , like someone poured iced water on me , shocked now isn’t a sufficient word to describe the way I feel , is it this simple ? 5ala9 mafi soha ? b hathi al s'hola ?

God took soha , but instead he granted us a baby boy , he took a life but gave is a life back

All I did at that time is crying , crying and also crying , I was remembering everything , every single event , and my memory led me to the day soha gave me a box and asked me to open it when anything bad happens to her

I quickly ran , searching for that box , opening it to find and a paper , I unfolded the paper to find :

رزان انتي لما تفتحين هذي الورقة و تقرأينها , أنا بكون انتقلت لرحمة ربي , أنا الحين تحت التراب و كل إلي أطلبه منكم هو الدعاء , لا تبكون بس ادعولي أنا محتاجة حق الدعاء أكثر من أي شي ثاني . رزان انا طلبتك طلب أتمنى إنك تسوينه , تزوجي فهد , انا ماقدر أأمن على زوجي و حب حياتي غير عندك , و رّبوا ولدي سلام أحسن تربية , أنا مابي سلام يحس أنه يتيم و ما أبيه يعرف أن أمه ماتت , سلام من هذا اليوم ولدك يا رزان , انا آسفة لأني خربت حياتك بس لأنك الوحيدة الي أثق فيها و أعتبرها روحي الثانية .

صديقتك المخلصة : سها

I not only hated myself , I wanted to die after reading this , I ruined her life and she's asking me to marry her husband and raise her child because she trusts me , 7sait eni ensana 78eera 7bait zojha w 5rbt 7yat'ha ma as'tahil eli bel wraga , the only reason I'm not killing  myself for is to grant soha's will .

I and fahad signed papers that indicates our marriage , and my life from that year until now didn’t change , I and fahad both live to raise salam , and do what soha wants .

My life now goes all around a single routine , university and raising salam , fahad and I rarely talk , and if we do it's all about salam , I seriously hate my life I'm only 22 , I shall enjoy my life not live this way , but I deserve this life …

I was at the kitchen preparing salam's food , I suddenly couldn’t feel anything around me …

 I woke up to find myself in the hospital ,fahad was next to me ..

I looked at him waiting to know what happened

Fahad  in a sad tone : tbeen ttrkeni b3d , laish ketha ya razan ? laish t'hmleen 9u7tik ? 9u7tik ga3da ttdhwr , ana w salam m7tajeenik

He said that and then left , so does fahad really cares about me ?

I fell that day , because of my eating disorder and neglecting my health.

I really wanted to die , I wanted that in any way , but it seems that fahad needs me , I felt guilty because of my selfish behaviors.

After 2 days   

I was playing with salam ,  and unexpectedly I found a small paper in the toys box that had :

Surprise , if you're interested , go to the kitchen …

I left salam after putting him is his bed and making sure he's asleep , and headed to the kitchen and searched for an evidence , and I found  3 cupcakes , the first one had : go , the second one had : to , and the third one had : the office

Could this day get any weirder ?

The office was me next destination, I searched here also to find a paper on the desk with the following : do you believe in happy endings ? if yes your bedroom is your next step

I entered my bedroom and also searched here to find a bag on the bed and when I opened it I found a white dress , and a note with the following : get ready to watch your dream comes true , wear this and be prepared for a wonderful night under the shiny stars , the roof is your final aim

I wore this dress , and left my long light brown hair cascading at my back , added some liner and covered my pink lips with a red lipstick , wore some heels and then headed to the roof .

As I was heading up using the stairs , the only source of light was the candles , I arrived there to see the person who symbolized my life standing there with a smile drawn is his face holding a diamond ring and saying : would you marry me ?

Yes fahad asked if  I would marry him , I know we were married but only by name , but today he asked me to share my life and love with him

I didn’t answer him , but gave him my hand. he enveloped the diamond ring in my finger , and then for the first time hugged me really tight , he hugged me and our souls also hugged each other .

That was the starting of my new life , after all this pain , a happy ending came . whatever happens just stay strong , behind happiness there's always pain , patient is always a key for happiness ,  w allah nfs ma ya5ith y36y

و إنما العبرة في النهايات

Always Expect the unexpected , life is full of surprises and hope.

That was my story I hope you all like it , and a big thank you to every reader , supporter and friend that helped me , you guys were my trigger I love you all , and please comment it really means the a lot

-lamablogger