chapter 10

Fahad: razan , what's wrong ? Are you alright ?
My tears was my answer
Me: ana...*sniff*aa
I didn't complete my word I,I
What the hell did I do ?
It felt so right , but no no razan no
I...
What I did was wrong I know it and admit it , but it  comforted me , gosh no , ughh it's just that my opposite thoughts collided in my head and my tears was still flowing , and fahad was so shocked I can tell , I was too.
I hugged my best friend's husband , shame on me , I have to move I-
A voice that I didn't want to hear , not now
...: what are you doing ?
Me : ahh no don't misunderstand , it's not what you think..
...: w b kil w8a7a trdeen ? y3ni akthib 3yoni w a9dgik ? Shrayik ?
Fahad : no wallah it's just that razan , razan umm
...: eeh kmil razan what ? I trusted both of you , my sister and my husband , a3z nas 3la glbi 5AYNEEN ,

and soha , yes soha lucky me , left us , she didn't leave the place , she leaved her awareness , she couldn't handle it she fell in the ground , both me and fahad were more than shocked , 2 in 1 , first hugging fahad and then soha seeing everything, what a coincidence ?

Fahad quickly carried soha , after she fainted , I followed them to the car , fahad was driving like a crazy I was scared his speed was so high , we arrived to the hospital's emergency's gate and soha was carried by one of the beds , fahad was scared , and nervous , so and I , after 30 minutes of waiting the doctor arrived
Fahad : doctor kaif soha ? Inshallah kwysa ?
Doctor : soha al7mdellah kwysa , bs al 56r 3al baby.
Shit , that's my fault
Doctor completing :tgdar ttf'9l m3ay al mktb w ntklm 3an al tfa9eel.
Ohh I'm unwelcome
Me: ana al7een raj3a albait w bukra inshallah jaya

I called the driver , and went back home , I didn't want to , as if it's a choice mathlan.

Everyone was sleeping , it was 2 am , thanks god !
I went to my room , and the first thing I did was looking at myself in the mirror , what I saw was a different me , physically and mentally I changed , my thoughts my dreams are different , I feel that I'm just a problem causer , I have no one to live for , everyone hates me , I betrayed everyone's trust , I don't deserve to live , my life should end , it should and ...

Sorry everyone for the late post , I'm just really busy with school , I will try to post asap
Love you all <3 !

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