a twist one fate -chapter 5



a part of me was just very curious to know where he was going , I told lamar that I have to go back home , but I actually didn’t go back home I followed fai9al ..

damn!! he’s driving way too fast I can’t see his car anymore , I had also to drive faster than the usual just to make sure that I’m still following him.

he left the car and walked ,walked to everyone’s secret keeper, walked to the thing that we all adore , and to the thing who we all talk to when we feel lonely , he walked to the sea .. He couldn’t take it and fell into the ground and cried, and I also couldn’t take it , I mean seeing this guy in this situation had really broke my heart , and also made me tear . ma 7sait l’nfsy ‘3air w ana gedamah , it’s like my heart drove me to him , he raised his eyes and looked into my eyes and then .. omg , this is so unexpected , it feels wired .. I just didn’t know what to do , I literally freezed .

now this guy , whose name is all  I know , hugged me !!!

y3ni amana ma knt 3arfa kaif at9rf , knt a7is b’shi ‘3reeb , w knt mn9dma and wowww he’s now crying on my shoulder ..

I just hugged him back , at that time I didn’t really know what I was thinking , my heart was my only guide , and all I did is just followed it .

Fai9al : Lamar … ana ‘9ay3 mo gader astw3ib eli y9eer , goleeli k4b oboy ma mat , goleeli lessa 3ayish , goli eni ma 9rt yteem

I was just staring at him without pronouncing any letter , awal shi I hugged a guy that I just saw for the first time , thani shi yfkrny Lamar , and what he’s saying .. God assist me with this , cause I don’t really know where are we reaching .

We both suddenly turned at the same second staring at the car that has just arrived , okay could this day be any worse ?

The 3 of us was shocked and each for a different reason. Mw8fy kan mu7rj , I mean she just saw me hugging this guy that I don’t know first and then ..

Lamar’s p.o.v :

I ran out of words , eli ga3da ashoofah gedamy .. Mayar and Faisal ? men meta w hm y3rfoon b3’9 ? w laih fai9al ma galy ? I mean we tell each other everything , bs it seems that I’m the only one who tells him everything .. and it feels weird , though aching to see them in this situation . I think the three of us can hear the voice of my heart beats , they couldn’t be any louder , and I couldn’t help it but teared , although those tears just signify nothing of my feelings at the moment .

Today I lost my uncle , I mean my father .. Mayar eli a5r w7da tw83t’ha mumkin tkoon b’3la8a m3a fai9al ..

w ahm shi Fai9al , Fai9al eli mafi kelmat mumkin tw9fah , l2na b’bsa6a ymthil 7yati , ho alsh59 alw7eed eli magdr a3eesh men doonah , alsh59 eli agolah kelshi , w alsh59 alw7eed eli , eli .. laih agoolha w at3b glby ..

r7t alsyarah , w 9rt asoog bsr3a , bs ma knt 3arfa wain aroo7 , l2na alsh59 eli kan mlj2y alw7eed w alsh59 eli knt ahrib lah kel ma 9ar li shi , 9ar alsh59 eli ahrib menah ..

my vision was really blurry because of my teary eyes , and I wasn’t able to think at that time , I was driving really really fast and I just didn’t pay attention to anything in this whole wide world . I just felt that all the reasons that kept me alive faded , and all the people I loved left me , so my life isn’t worth living anymore , why would I just bring pain to myself  , and make myself suffer by my own self . living is a choice to many people , but to me it isn’t . I now have a 0 reason to live for , so my choice isn’t as any person in this world , my choice is to die , to just kill all the pain I’m feeling , and to execute all my struggles .

I think it’s the time for goodbye ..