chapter13

Someone entered the room

Who do you think?

La w azeedkm men al she3er bait , it was 2 persons not one , lucky me :)

Mama nearly shouting : aish eli ga3da ashoofh ?

Zeyad : ahlan mama , bs knt kay at6mn 3la E5TY ( and he stressed that word), w ana mashi al7een

While zeyad was speaking to my mom , rakan's eyes - yes he was the second person - had thousands of questions , but he quietly said : we need to talk

Great he misunderstand , and I believe that as zeyad left , the awkward moment will take their place here , get ready for it

Mama: wallah mo 3arfa shagol , al7mdellah 3al salamah , aw ya 5sara e7tart , mumkin ya razan tkbreen shwi , mumkin tfkreen shwi gbil ma tt9rfeen zay hatha al t9ruf al '3bi , mumkin ? Wallah ma a3rf hatha '3l6 meen ya benti , ana aw enti aw meen ? Atmna eli 9ar ma yn3ad w ella bykoon le t9rf thani m3ak

And she left , but rakan stayed , and before he speaks or says anything ,i spoke

Me: zeyad came to apologize , and he wanted a new start but as a sister and a brother

Rakan : that's good , but it isn't the subject that needs to be clarified ,

He took a deep breath , and then continued : why did you do this ? What made you so weak ? Why did you choose this ? You know I've been always here for you , you chose to torment your soul , but you could've comfort it , you could've talk , and express your feelings , I thought that you became stronger , I didn't think that your this weak , you chose the  easiest way to end everything , you thought that this would be the end , but your totally wrong , this is the start of something new , I know I can't say I didn't expect this from you cause I never been in your shoes , I never experienced what you did , but sister do you know what start is this ? It's the start where you take each step with me next to you , I won't leave you , I would help you to get over all your pain , do you promise that you would help me with that ?

I was speechless , no words can't describe this situation

I felt hate towered myself , I felt that I'm such a selfish person , I never thought of anyone but myself when I did that

I just cried and cried and cried and hugged my brother so tight , I thanked god for the life that I'm still living first and then for this brother.

We stayed hugging for 5 minutes and then I said : now I have a reason to live for

And then smiled , a truthful smile , coming from the insides of my heart and being reflected on my lips.

He said : it's your last day in here

Me: laish since when I'm here ?

Rakan : 2 days , but you were asleep

Me: ohh , 6ayeb can I ask for something ?

Rakan:sure

Me: can we watch a movie and have pizza just like last time

Rakan: do you read my mind

I laughed , and we watched a movie and we also had pizza , what a day

The next day I went out of the hospital , and headed to our home , that home that I just hated, many bad memories.

I entered the house and headed to my room , I opened the door to see a room different than mine , the walls were painted in baby blue , and the furnished was white , I liked the colors they were so peaceful and relaxing and cozy ,

I saw a little card in the bed that had : hope you like the room , I'm sorry  

I immediately called rakan to say thank you :

Rakan : hii

Me : hii , mara shukrani I soo like it

Rakan : like what ?

Me : the room ?

Rakan : which room  are you talking about ?

If rakan wasn't the one , then who did ?